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Here is my first computer drawn comic by yours truly.....Some said the character resembles me, how true it is that is for you to decide....=)

I am Soooo proud of my much effort work...=)

~ A Masterpiece I can call my own ~

(maybe not such of a masterpiece after all..hehe)

YOU

PMSing is affecting me on the inside today. Horrible feelings and negative thoughts are being thrown at me….sigh…. Thank God I am able to control not blowing it all out at people.

Many of my friends are going through a period of emoness and feeling overly stress and drain right now. I felt really helpless watching them feel this way and not being able to do anything to make things better.
So this goes out to some people I care much about……

My BuddyBear
Although things haven’t been the way it used to be, I want you to know that I still care. I still care when you think I don't. It’s just that I’ve been occupied with so many things. And the truth is, I find it hard to balance it all at once. I’ve often wonder, will you learn to appreciate me better when I’m gone? I guess I know the answer now…..
Sorry that I couldn’t be there when you needed support…
Sorry for not being able to encourage you when you were down…
Sorry for not lending you a shoulder to cry on when you needed one…
Sorry for paying less attention to your needs …
Sorry for being insensitive …
I remembered telling you that I’ll try not to expect anything in return from what has been given. But in a way I failed. But I want to try again; I want to try to be the friend that I used to be to you. I don’t know if I will succeed, but I will try….
And if I fail again, I hope I don’t break you even more…

Heidi dearie
Thank you for being ever thoughtful and supportive. In such a short time, I’ve never imagined to be able to have a great friend like you. It’s been great sharing ups and downs with you. Just remember that I’m here to support you through. Keep smiling and keep trusting Daddy Above. He’s Hand is still in control of everything whether in your education or in your relationship. And He will bring you through. Remember that you are so precious in His eyes, and every drop of your tears are as precious jewel to Him. Love ya girl…=)

Emerson

Hey you, have a lot of catching up to do with you…haha… Hope all is getting better. Don’t be emo ya? Having emotions and feelings are a good thing, but don’t fully rely on them. Don’t let your feelings tells you what you should or should not do. Remember that feeling always changes. So do what you know is right and pleasing in the eyes of God. Take care!!

Jia Wern
Press on!! Fight the battle. You’ll make it through…
Don’t make any decision now ok? Talk to Daddy Above first and see where He leads you. Anyway thank you for everything….=)

John
It’s almost over…. you will make it through….

TQ for being a great lunch and dinner buddy besides being a great friend. Glad to be able to 'lepak' with you these days. We'll 'lepak' more after finals ok...haha... Take care...

Wee Liem

Thanks for the encouragement.... and the many pieces of advice...=)

All de best for your exams... Don't stress ya...*hugz*

Audrey

Stay strong... many people are cheering you on including your Papa in Heaven....TQ for being such a great Buddy to me. TQ too for always taking the initiative to see how i am doing....

You're precious.....=)

Hope everyone's feeling much better already...

Here's from me.... *bearhugz* to all... that includes you even if your name is not mention up there.....=)

Only A Lamb

ONLY A LAMB

Should have been me hanging on the Cross,
Should have been my crown of thorns,
Should have been me they laid in the tomb,
Should have been my shame and scorn....
Should have been me they crucified,
Should have been my hands and feet,
Should have been me who drank the cup,
Should have been me....

But...
Only A Lamb who was PERFECT
could die and carry the weight of my sin,
Only A Lamb who was WORTHY
could rise that I might Live Again!

STRENGTH 4 de Weak

Been desperately wanting to blog but just couldn’t fine the time to…sob sob... Now I know how crazy FCM life can be..sigh.. Mostly everyone I know seems to be bottle up by loads of stress and emoness. What’s happening? I guess it’s the season, it will pass, season do pass and a brand new season will come. Can’t wait for that new season to arrive…

What’s happening with the world? From WTC being terrorist to earth quakes to Tsunami to Hurricane Katrina. What an unsaved place planet Earth had become, a place we call home. SIGNS… SIGNS….SIGNS…. it’s all obvious signs of The Lord’s Coming. It’s so real, but I wonder how many people actually notice them? Every time I hear of scary disasters falling upon various parts of the world, shattering many lives, I can’t help but to question, ‘When will Malaysia be hit? When is our turn?’ It’s like just a matter of time till we actually get strike as well. Like God have said in His Word, all things will come to past before His coming. And that does not spare us…. It’s scary to wonder, ‘How many lives have I won for Christ?’ ‘How much time do I still have to do His work?’ ‘Will I make it through the signs of His coming?’
Scary but True.. He is coming, Christ is coming back again….. We are living in the end times. It would be really a fool not to realize that after all the signs.

My week wasn’t all that good. Busy and stress out with assignments, wasn’t really sure how I was going to pulled myself through all this. But I’ve decided to include God in everything, in my studies, in my stressfulness, in my emoness, in my weakness…. I just felt like I needed God so much, just felt weak…. Purely weak… I needed some divine strength from above. I personally feel that all energy have been generated out of me. Needed God’s strength so badly. At this point of time I just want an intervention from God. I know that He will come through for me. I’m truly thankful for friends. In times like these, God actually send friends to support me through.

Thank you guys. You know who you are…*bearhugz* Especially you Heidi dearie... You don't know what a darling you can be....*muaks*

~My Grace is SUFFICIENT for you, for My Strength is made PERFECT in weakness. For when i'm weak then I'm strong.~

2 Corinthians 12:9,10

In Darkness, I Found Light

I dunno why but I seem to be falling in love with this song... :)
Love the lyrics in it...

ONLY IN THE DARK (Juwita Suwito)

The raindrops fall incessantly
Each time I think the sky's letting up
There seems to be another cloud
Bringing the dark
Coming right at me

So often I can't see the road ahead
The blinding headlights loom
Then go out again
But suddenly I find that I
Don't need to strife
Cause I realize I am rising, I'm flying and...

Only in the dark when I can't seem to see
I learn to hear Your whisper
That's been guiding me
Reach out for the Hand
That's bears the light
So my step is right
Only in the dark

Now each day's a step that's lighted up
And the question asked
Won't make me stop
'Cause I know no matter how I feel
That this is real
And I'm slowly getting to a
Place where it's not...

So let the shadows come
And let me run into Your arm where
I can feel the warmth of Your touch
Unmistakable
Leading me on, loving me on, turning me on
Though now I seems to be that

~In my darkest hour, I found God...

The true Peace Giver and the Strength of my life.
Thank You My Father.......Desperately in need for your embrace......Don't let me go God...~

*BearHugzz*

I’m so blessed today. I went to Trinity Home, which is an orphanage home. It was so nice to actually spend time with the kids there. They were amazing. Although with the little that they had, I sense love in that home. We laughed, we played, we sang, we danced, we took loads of photos and for a moment I just forgot all about my assignments that needs to be done. I gave loads of bearhugs to the kids, just showering them with love the best I could. Today, I finally learn what it means to really give bearhugs. One of the things that I dislike about my petite size is that I can’t give people good hugs. It’s either they will be taller than I am or bigger than I am. With the kids, for the first time ever, I’m actually able to throw my arms around them and give them a full hug, which really felt great. Something that I’ve always wanted to do but failed to cause of my size…sigh…

So today, I’ve learn the true feeling of giving a real *bearhugs*…haha

Felt really happy spending time with the kids. Missing them already :)

So Simple... YET...So Satisfying

Changed

Up Up Up…. Down Down Down…….

It’s amazing how things in my life can go high up one moment and the next hitting bottom ground. It’s like a metaphor it goes on and on. Well I was burn out last week, but this week by the grace of God I’m able to fall back into His loving arms… WOOHOO… I did it again….
Burn?? I’m no longer that burn out anymore. Still busy…total madness… But I’m learning… Actually in this period of burn out season, I’m reminded once again about prayer. Business with our life can sometimes remove God from the picture of our life.
With the amount of workload placed on me, assignments, commitment… to me it really seem impossible to manage everything all at once. In times of desperation, I remembered what a good friend of mine once told me. Often time people forget to do the SIMPLEST thing of all, that is to PRAY…. Most of us know that prayer is powerful, prayer can do wonders, we KNOW…. But how many people actually remember to do it? How many people actually BELIEVE that God works through prayers?

I worried, I stressed, I cried, I sort of gave up…. Yet talking to God about it wasn’t what I choose to do. I was too busy worrying, too busy stressing, too busy completing my work, too busy serving Him with my own strength. I didn’t trust fully that God would take care of me, I forgot that God is BIGGER than my problems. Then, after being reminded of doing the simplest thing of all which is to pray, I came to a point where I just took time off and poured out whatever I was feeling in my heart to Him. I laid my burdens down at His feet, there and then. I find myself surrendering the problem into His care and not taking it into my own hands anymore.

From then on.....amount of workload remains, amount of commitment remains, the only thing that changed is me. After surrendering it to Papa dearest, I began to trust God to pull me through. And amazingly, things are working out so much better than what I’ve expected it to be. I’m sure that God’s Hands was and still is in it all the way.

God wants us to include Him in our life, whether in good times or bad times. And when you actually allow Him to be the center of your situation, He will do wonders. And so I am here today, REVIVE once again. Saved by His loving grace… :)

Sur-Wife!

I'm A

SURVIVOR!!