Reflection

It's the last day of year 2005. Another year has gone by, so fast, so quickly, just a blink of an eye. So as I usher into year 2006, it's time to do some reflection on what has happen throughout the year.

What happen in year 2005 :-

1) I work for about 4 months in my mum's office

2) Gotten into MMU- the course that took so much out of me

3) Went for youth camp in Port Dickson-God's provision

4) Bless with a whole bunch of new friends in uni

5) Went bowling for the first time

6) Went ice-skating for the first time

7) Went for my first mission trip in Cameron Highland-eye opener

8) Survived through FCM for 2 sems

9) Got my own PC

10) Got my first BIG teddy bear

11) Became an Easter Event committee- sexytary

12) Went for Planet Shakers concert- the original band

13) Saw Guy Sebastian live

14) My mentor came back for a surprise visit...* surprise surprise*

15) Bought my dad a handphone

16) Broke a guy's heart...>_<

17) Celebrated Christmas with people back at home and people in Cyber

18) Nearly burn down someone's house due to my unskillful cooking

Things I've learn in year 2005 :-

1) To include God in every situation- PRAYER

2) To be humble

3) To be willing to put aside all differences, to be willing to give up comfort, to be willing to get my hands dirty and to be willing to love people the way they are all because I love Christ

4) To draw a line between caring too much

5) To keep my standards high even when the level of peer pressure is high

The coming year..... I wonder what lies ahead...... As for now, I have no sense of direction....

'Goodbye year 2005, Hello year 2006'

Going back in time

CHRISTMAS!!! How can I not blog on my Christmas? Going to do a quick one...Weeeee~~~~

I had a busy, busy, busy Christmas this year... Christmas shopping, Assignments, Caroling Practices, Dance practises.... man.... practically busy, busy, busy every single weekend. I only managed to wrap my presents the day before Christmas...madness...
Really missed all the past Christmas I had, more time for everything... to bake, to make cards and bookmarks, to wrap presents, to go christmas shopping, to spend time in church, to spend time with people... all the things I miss.... =(

I dun want to make this an emo post, so gonna maintain the Christmas spirit. Despite the business, I was quite hype up this year, excited and all... was like one of the noisy ones in church.. as usual...haha... We had a children Christmas party a week before Christmas. The day before the party things were pretty unorganized. But thank God on the actual day, things went smoothly. I was asked to lead worship for the party again this year. I decided to get amateur and new musicians this time, and it turn out great. My musicians were great, especially the guitarist who was playing for the very first time. I had lots of fun worship leading, especially with kids.... singing songs with all kinds of actions....=)
I remember this little girl in particular. After I worship lead, she came up to me and said 'merry christmas' and gave me a kiss on both cheeks. I was caught by surprise, but it felt really good... Kids do surprise you...haha..

On Christmas day, my youth came out with a production. The drama was excellent.. *2 thumbs up* Good effort from all the youth in such a short time. At the end of the drama, we had a dance and I was one of the dances. I finally dance again after so long. Never really like dancing compared to acting. Not graceful enough...=P
Later after Christmas service we went to Yi Wen's haven for a small youth Christmas gathering. It was fun, fun, fun... Got a lil doggy from him... YAY! Another doggy to accompany me in hostel.

Before I forget, this is something a beautiful friend said to me. I was going through some rough time a couple of weeks back. And this friend said the most beautiful thing a friend could say to me. She simply said ' Whatever your decision is, I will support you through'...*wipes tears*....=)

*Thank you my beautiful friend....Heidi*

Miracle

It's been long since I last updated. Gonna do a quick recap of whatever that had happened for the past few weeks...*wink wink*...

Three weeks ago......

I had a painting assignment called warm and cool colours. My painting skill as far as I know is BAD... I CANNOT paint... more like I hardly explore on my painting skills. Got no confident in it at all...

First painting :

Try guessing what am I painting... ???
This is actually a sunset painting. But it looks NOTHING like a sunset painting... just a piece of who knows what...haha.. But I took about 4 hours to complete this 'ugly' painting.

I was disturb with the result of my first painting. I knew that if I were to submit this painting, 80% surely to be REJECTED!! I became so desperate and worried. My only answer was prayer, and so I did... I pray and pray... Told God "I dun have the ability to draw, to paint, and I dunno how but I need You to help me. Please give me the ability"

After praying I decided to paint a different picture.....

Second painting :

This is what happens when God holds your hand and paint....=)

Cool Painting

Warm Painting

God blew my mind away once again. Truly I believe it was God holding my hand and paint. Until today, I dunno how did I get the ability to paint.

*Thank You Jesus*

Two weeks ago....

I had a grafiti assignment to do. I was suppose to design my name, but I menciplakkan some other people's grafiti...hehe

*Thank you Jia Wern for the Grafiti... it's Beautiful*

First painting :

REJECTED

This grafiti got REJECTED because I used white and black colour in it. I didn't know I was not allow to use black and white. Stayed up till really late to get this done, only to get it rejected within seconds...sigh...

Second painting :

and

Painting this nearly make me go crazy. It almost made me hate the colour blue.

One week ago....

I was suppose to do an in class assignment which was a landscape painting based on an actual landscape. We were given about 3 hours to paint and were suppose to submit it by the end of the class.

Original landscape picture

*Thank you Wee Liem and Audrey for sending me so many landscape pictures willingly although it was so late at night already... I really appreciate it... =)*

My painting

Throughout these pass few weeks, I still see God's Grace and Favor upon my life.

Can't thank Him enough.... Can't repay Him enough....

*Thank you Papa in Heaven for EVERYTHING.

Thank you for making me Your Princess*

Home is where the Heart is

Going home in a while time. Another week has gone by, a week filled with diffrent feelings and emotions surpress in me. Well, I finally managed to pick up my Bible and look to God in prayer. Maybe going home for the weekend would help me take my mind off things, to let go of things, to let time heal, maybe... just maybe....

BRIGHTEST

Verse 1:

In the midst of all my troubles

When I have nowhere to go

Jesus, I have You to hold

Verse 2:

When I'm drowning in dis heartache

And I just can't help but cry

Jesus, in You I rely

Chorus:

For You are BIGGER than my mountains

GREATER than my fears

And You are ALWAYS here beside me

Always here to catch my tears

You surround me with Your pressence

Fill me with Your love

In my darkness Lord, You shine

The BRIGHTEST

Bridge:

It's Your love that keeps me going

It's Your love that pulls me thru

And there's nobody else

That can take me away

From You

~ Yi Wen, you gotta sing this song to me again, I can't quite remember how it goes. Anyway am looking forward to hear your next song...*bearhugz*~

-tha-

Distracted

Why do I feel like I've left God out of my life these few days? Maybe I have. My mind is preoccupied with things that I shouldn't be concentrating on. I find it hard to even pick up my Bible to read. When I pray I dozed off. How could I do this to God, worry and take matters into my own hands, after all that He has given me? Why Jacintha? Why?

~God I dunno why... I'm sorry.... I'm sorry that I made You feel as though I don't need You anymore~

It hurts me to hurt the ones I care about, but 'sometimes we have to be cruel to be kind'. Well I hope all turns out well..... sigh....

-tha-

Pampered

We totally caught Heidi with surprise yesterday... Her boyfriend and I 'conspire' against her... In the afternoon I turn off my handphone as I was charging it, and her boyfriend left me 5 miss calls and 1 voice message. I was so surprised that he call me cause I have not met him before. All I know is he exist and he knows I exist. Anyway he told me he wanted to surprise her cause the next day is a VERY special day to them... yeah it's their anniversary. Oh well....

His mission : To get to MMU Cyberjaya before 12a.m

My mission : To keep Heidi awake

He failed his mission, however i suceeded....haha... He arrived in MMU at about 12.30a.m... but couldn't blame him cause he hasn't been to MMU before. And as for me, I managed to keep Heidi busy till he arrived. When I knew what Heidi's boyfriend was planning to do for her, I thought I was going to grin with envy. However it didn't turn out that way. The look on Heidi's face when she saw him and the dozen of roses made me felt really really happy for them, more like for her. Heidi has been telling me about the communication breakdown that they had been facing, and it's really good to see Heidi being happy and proud of her relationship once again. If I would say, I think that this Surprise went sucessfully, everything just fall into place. Actually I was sot of killing two birds with one stone. I wanted to help her boyfriend surprise her and I also needed to talk to her about some stuff. So I used that an hour plus while waiting for her boyfriend to arrive to have a heart to heart talk with her. And it was great...*as usual*....

*You're great Heidi, I know I can count on you. I felt much better telling you all the stuff that I never told you before. Well now you know, so Sssshhhh.....*

Well I've been having some thought of changing course cause 'I CAN'T DRAW'... sob sob... Been praying about it. I'm so thankful and amazed at how God just send people to guide me, convince me, assure me.... So comforting to know that God is still holding my future in His Hands. It's scary to gazed into the unknown future, but I believe that God has still great plans instore, I should stop worrying about the future and trust God. You are right my fren (you know who you are), there are 2 constant..... God's plan and Time... sometimes we fall out of God's plan, but by God's grace we are able to fall back in.... Yes the two straight lines...=)

* TQ for your time, it has been great knowing you*

It's coming to an end of another year. Time to do some reflection, just what I have been doing. I'm soooooo blessed.... I'm so pampered by God this year.... Everything was well provided by Him... I truly feel it has been God's grace and favor upon my life.

Dear God,

I thank You for Your Everlasting love to me

I thank You for Your Constant favor upon my life

I thank You for Your Grace that looks beyond my ugliness

I thank You for Your Strength to carry on

I thank You for Your Forgiving arms that carries me

I thank You for Your Comfort that counts my tears precious

I thank You for the many Friends You brought my way

I thank You for the time of Quietness with You

I thank You for Teaching and Reminding

I thank You for Pampering me

I thank You, I thank You, I thank You

And most of all......

I LOVE YOU....*bearhugz*

-tha-